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tagging [Dec. 6th, 2006|09:52 pm]
[Current Location |nana's]
[Current Mood |blankblank]

Okay so I can see 1 time because I got a new car. I can probably see 2 times because it was my birthday but 3 times is really pushing it. I was mad after two and I came out of choir rehersal tonight and was livid. This is really ridiculous. I don't tag your cars, egg your houses, or tp you so why the hell do you do it to me. If it happens again all of the above will probably happen to your house so I would suggest not doing it again. Please and thank you.

~Whew now that that's over choir rehersal was good

~We didn't get yelled at too much

~School is the most stressful thing ever right now here's the list of stuff to do before finals:

-finish The Handmaid's Tale

-write 9 journal entries on it

-get through my canterbury presentation alive

-prepare for my canterbury presentation

-learn basically a whole sememster of Spanish

-do my mobile project which I have no idea how to do

-study my ass off for history so i can get my grade up to an A

-do the extra credit for history

~and I think thats about it but look at all the shit I have to get done

~I should have practiced for all state auditions tomorrow but I don't really care all that much

~Flute gigs make me a lot of money

~Okay I'm done now bye bye
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poo [Dec. 2nd, 2006|01:17 pm]
[Current Mood |apatheticapathetic]

~I'm tired of fighting

~I'm tired of looking strong and not really feeling it

~I'm tired of being fake

~I'm sick of not being able to admit to myself how I feel (except on stage)

~I sort of just want to go away for a while and not come back

~I want to meet new people, but i don't have an outlet for it.

~Bryce we still need our bitch moment

~Lately I've let things affect me way too much and that needs to stop but i'm not quite sure how.

~I just want to be rid of all of this

~I have so much English stuff to do

~My head hurts

~I'm hungry

~I'm out

Parade of lights sort of scuked. My arms and my back died on me but whatev. I did get to be out there for a while and think which was really good but it sort of made me sad. This year has totally been a whirlwind I wasn't ready for. I'm not sure if I'll ever really be ready for it. I'm not sure really how to be anymore becasue I've always had someone with me when I need it and this year it's like I actually have to work so hard to be with people. I've sort of just been traveling around from group to group and when I finally find a place I fit it's too good to be true and I lose it. I don't know this is just me bitching. See yall at parade of lights tonight. I hope it stops snowing.
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christmas lights and country music [Nov. 25th, 2006|04:32 pm]
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]

Well we put up our christmas lights today which was good. Emily and I put lights on the tree and if I do say so myself it looks basically amazing! It took for freaking ever so it better look amazing. We're going downtown tonight and then to the hockey game so that should be really fun! Tomorrow not so much. I have a group of people coming over to work on a project for a few hours and the project kinda sucks. The people are cool though so whatev. Candlelight walk was great. Flute choir sucked but we sort of expected that. The whole band together was fun though. Sean and I basically improved in really high octaves the entire time which sounded really shitty but it was so much fun. And doc didn't notice so how can you go wrong right? Katie, Em and I hung out last night too which was sooooo great! She was here until 2 but ya we did catch up on everything important. Anyway hope everyone is having a good break and i'll see yall monday.
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last emo blog I promise [Nov. 22nd, 2006|10:28 am]
[Current Mood |draineddrained]

~I think I'm finally better

~Last night was basically one of the worst of my life

~I haven't cried like that since I was probably 7 or 8 but it felt good

~I'm not mad at you just at myself for being that stupid

~I knew it was going to be a 'screw abbe over thing' but I don't think I would have done anything different so ya.

~I'm sorry you changed your mind but it would have been nice to know and not guess. just advice for next time

~I don't necessarily miss that whole situation I just miss your friendship. That's what I was more upset about than anything else.

~I hope things can go back to normal

~I'm so glad I called you last night, I don't know what I would have done without you calming me down. seriously. thank you for being there for me.

~I'm finally relieved of all this and I'm okay now which is good.

~I think I have a new boy problem starting. no good. hopefully i can stop this one before someone gets hurt.

~Jamba can cure anything

~Piano lesson time bye bye
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confused [Nov. 16th, 2006|11:01 pm]
[Current Location |home sweet home]
[Current Mood |confusedconfused]

What a whirlwind of a week. It's been so emotionally draining to say the least. People:

~ We had so much fun tonight! Thank you for cheering me up and making me laugh you are amazing.

~ Thank you for everything you do. You are truly an inspiration to me and I can't believe you pulled everything off so beautifully.

~ You have become a new best friend for me and it's so amazing that we're getting close. I'll tell you the truth I never saw it happening. We're very different but you are basically amazing and even though I just met you I feel I can talk to you about anything.

~ I've known you for so long but I'm just starting to become friends with you again. You've always been there for me and I know I can't say the same but I'll try to do better. Thanks for never giving up on me.

~You confuse me beyond belief. I don't know how to deal with you anymore. I just wish we could figure things out cause you're leaving me hanging and I miss you.

~I've changed my mind about you. I thought that you were a really cool person and it turns out I haven't really seen your true colors. I'm surprised but at the same time not so much.

Oh I'm 1 page away from finishing Duex Arabesques which is sort of sad cause I am falling in love with it more and more every time I play it. But ya that's about it i'm exhausted and I'm going to bed goodnight all.
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(no subject) [Nov. 14th, 2006|08:41 pm]
[Current Location |home sweet home]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

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notes [Nov. 3rd, 2006|05:32 pm]
[Current Location |nanas]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]

~I hope the play is good tonight but from what I've heard it kinda sucks.

~Sarah Dessen is an amazing author

~I think I'm finally understanding things

~I got a 94 on my history test which will bring my grade up finally. Yay!

~I've had 2 good days in a row. Woot!

~I have a new piano piece that I've been working on for a while that is absolutely the most incredible thing in the world.

~I'm actually having fun at school.

~I have another choir/band delima which sucks as usual but whatever

~That's about it.
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mental notes [Oct. 31st, 2006|10:47 pm]
[Current Mood |crappycrappy]

~Trick or treating was more fun when we were kids

~I miss feeling accepted

~I was right. All guys are the same.

~I have a huge history test tomorrow that i'm not prepared for

~I hate Spanish

~I wish people didn't change and start lying.

~I wish people were genuine and not fake

~I wish I didn't have to be fake sometimes to be liked

~I wish I had more courage most of the time

~I hate getting screwed over

~Sorry I got really sad when I came home for some reason. I wish someone was here with me. Oh well. goodnight
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people [Oct. 31st, 2006|05:00 pm]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]

*Applys to more than one person
*1. We've been friends for a long time. I miss you a lot. I wish we could hang out more
2. I've been thinking about you a lot lately. You were a huge part of my life and I miss some of that a great deal, but i don't miss you necessarily.
3.We've been close for a long time too but lately you've changed completely. I'm not sure that I like the change at all. You always used to be someone I could talk to, but now i feel like i have to choose my words when i'm around you. I don't trust you because you're turning into him.
*4. I hope we can stay friends. I know I made a rift but I think that we can overcome it. I love hanging out with you. You have saved me this year.
5. You confuse me so much. I don't know how I feel about you exactly. You have made my life so much better, but i'm scared to get too close. You've hurt me before and I'm hesitant to open myself up more to you for fear of getting hurt.
*6. I want to talk to you more. We should hang and just talk for a while.
7.You've been my heart and my strenth through this year. You have always listened to me no matter how trivial or stupid it may be and for that I am eternally grateful.
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and then there was one [Oct. 31st, 2006|04:54 pm]
[Current Mood |lazylazy]

Well Colton and I broke up last night. I felt really bad but I think that he was okay with it. It was really awkward today but I sort of expected that so it was alright. Ya just wanted to update on that. I think I'm going trick-or-treating tonight but i'm not so sure yet so ya it should be good either way. homework calls. laters
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